Advent

Finally exams are done! I finished just yesterday at 12pm. I hate 3 hour exams. I just want to kick it back relax, get nice n’ fat n’ jolly for the holidays and unplug from society and reality.

As you guys all know I took a fight on short notice and I’m receiving a lot of criticism from it from my coaches my team, but at the end of the day me and my team because we are a family, we are in this together…sorry if I dragged you guys into it. My manager will come back for New York after finalizing the deal and signing papers and will give me the official briefing on it. I’ll give you all a heads up as to what’s going on. But as far as I know, it won’t be televised. I am in awe and humbled by the fact that so many of you attended my fights, some of you from Brazil, Florida LA…the list goes on…with different lifestyles, backgrounds, etc. who read my blog postings and thanks for all the Facebook adds, emails and Facebook messages, they are and have been a great support for me. I would never guess in a million years to get so much mail and so much support from you all. Some of the messages and emails I’ve been getting you told me to keep my head up and some of you crazy people even suggested that you’d come see my fight in New York in person to support me and hang out at Times Square for the new years countdown. You guys are great!...I’ve had a blast reading your messages and emails. I also thank you all for giving your condolences for my mom’s situation. But don’t feel sorry for me having to be put into this position, there’s a lot of people out there that are in worst case scenarios, this is just something that I deal with. I’m sure a lot out there would see this as an opportunity and welcome it. As many asked how my training is going, I’m working on just defensive strategies, setting traps and counterpunching because my conditioning is not up to par with my other competitions. So I’d have to fight a smart fight, grind out 12 rounds and try not to absorb major damage from him. I’ve never been knocked out or got a concession in my fighting career; never planned to because I made a promise to myself and to my ex (when we were still together) that if I ever got knocked out I’d walk away from the sport altogether. Even though we are not together, I’d still like to honor that promise. My coach and my team have been working endlessly to prevent it especially in this fight. But I can see the fear in their eyes that in this it might actually happen. But however worried and however well they help me prepare…when I walk in the ring…it’s the loneliest place in the world, I’m all by myself…it’s up to me in end. As for me, I’m not terrified by the idea, but if it happens I’ll hang up my gloves. I guess destiny awaits…but I make my own destiny so that doesn’t count. If I walk away from it all I’ll fill my training time playing the piano and making music…after all I do have Grade 10 Royal Conservatory of Music for piano, don’t I?
But until then…lace them shoes up...I put on my fly shorts and I FIGHT…just like that…ya dig?

Thank you for all your support, what it means to me I cannot put into words. As for this fight, I’ll give it my best, I’ll fight my heart out just like I do every time but if I lose, end up in the hospital or in a coma…my hope is that that I didn’t disappoint you all! But again, don’t pity me but smile for me, ‘cause it’s just something that I deal with. Smile for me that I made over yet another bump in life with many more to come :).

Lastly, forgive me…forgive me of my stupidity, forgive me for my faults….forgive me for being me…

“We avoid risks in life...so we can make it safely to death.”