Went to the Library to study today…just wanted to be an average student with primarily academics on their mind. It went well, after I met up with some high school friends while having dinner at FMP today. Seem like everyone on their way to climbing up that corporate ladder…on the verge of becoming rich and famous…even in this recession. My philosophy has always been the fact that in reality, landing a decent job that will have a lasting impact on our careers will always be hard to find and compete for…but with this recession, we are blame it on the recession and hide under it like a blanket to excuse ourselves from finding a good job or getting a job at all…in a way it covers up for our insecurities (in the career sense)…but seems like my high school buddies are well on their way. I’m delighted to see them become a success story…maybe my high school business teacher was right when she said our year of students were the most exceptional kids she’d ever taught…wait a minute…that should include me too don’t it??…or am I too caught up in my childhood fantasies???
Everyone narrows their focus on school and academics which in turn gives us that high salary job. But for me I’m the one trying to balance academics, my military career, boxing at the top level while holding a part-time job to finance my endeavors. Of course school is unprecedented…it tops my priority. It’s tough sometimes but at the same time I feel very privileged to be able to accomplish all this. I feel very happy that every day I wake up excited just like I was when I was a kid trying to strive to be better in every facet of life...not just my boxing. Because I do what I like to do and it’s not something that everybody can say in this world, I know a lot of people, if they could, would like to change places with me…but I’d be lying if I told you school sometimes is a dread.
May be it is time to abandon this and focus on my career. But if I qualify for the Olympics in 2012 and perhaps bring the gold medal home…will it make it all worth the effort??? But if I call it quits…the feeling calm and excitement of walking in the ring with thousands in the crowds cheering at a moment when you are the most true to yourself…this will be nothing but a mere memory. The adrenaline rush…the thunderous roar of the crowds giving a standing ovation after my victory…the after parties that I host at the casinos and different venues…meeting celebrities…man those days can only be revisited in dreams or through my imagination…by then…no longer a reality…but the fighting spirit lingers on…
What am I thinking about quitting anyways??? I have a fight in a month in Vegas…dammit my right arm still hasn’t healed up yet and I can’t train and prep for the fight until it’s healed. One option of healing it is injecting steroids into my elbow and it’ll heal at a superhumanly fast rate…expensive with adverse side effects. I’ve always turned down that as a treatment option…but now it seems to be an incredibly attractive and viable option now. Well, whether not I choose to quit the sport or not, I already signed the contract that I’ll fight in this event in Las Vegas…but one thing is for sure, I need a long break away from the sport, and I’ll go form there and see if I have hunger to return and prove that I’m the best at this…potentially leaving a legacy…
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