Man…I miss Florida…the beaches…the people…the weather. I miss being a rock star there too. I got first class treatment wherever I went in South Beach. But back to reality I’m stuck in the cold in Toronto…can’t say it sucks because my buddies are here.
*Sigh* my first week of school has come to a close. I made a road trip to Trenton to go on base to bid you farewell on Monday. When me and her got there, your plane left…she stood outside crying. I hope you got my text…I was looking forward to hear from you from Mirage, Germany…but I guess you were too caught up. Anyways fight hard…give them hell. It wasn’t easy for your parents to raise you up…so don’t you ever give up the fight. Your mom was crying too…I didn’t know how to comfort her…I told her everything will be alright…but there’s nothing more I could say that would make her feel better. I'm sitting comfortably typing this thing out...and you're out fighting in the deserts of Afghanistan...fighting for us...and fighting to stay alive. Out of all of us…I’m the only one that knows how it feels. I know she weighs heavily in your heart…much unneeded emotional baggage indeed…yeah I know she doesn’t understand and probably never will. I tried my best to explain to her…but as you know you…have to experience to know…words cannot explain. It’s hard to say something positive about it….because sugar-coating it will only deviate from the truth. I remember back then when I left for Afghanistan…you were so supportive of me when everyone else was begging me not to go and questioned my sanity. I remember as I left, I turned back to look at you guys one last time and at that time I thought it was the last time I would see you guys, as you all wished me farewell. As I boarded the plane I had a goal…a reason for doing this…you guys gave me the reason to be fighting this war. I had mentality that I’m taking all this pain and suffering so that you all didn’t have to. And when I bid you farewell and I foresee the torment that you will experience in the coming months yet unable to put it on myself or do anything about it…feels like I’m betraying my thoughts and memories…feels like I’m betraying…you...
For you PUAs, I'm going to take a break from all that. I'll be back sarging with you guys later. I can't say I'm taking a break because I've found “the one” or say that I found anyone in particular at all. I’ll just let the chips fall where they may right now. Wish you guys all the best…hope to hear more stories from you guys. Hope that when I come back you guys can teach me a few new things.
That’s enough out of me…going to do something productive with my life…
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