This week, this month has been nothing short of meeting and greeting new people...becoming friends, reacquainting with old friends...enjoying life before exams rain on me...

Just wan t to thank everyone for letting me share something and supporting me at events that has been such an inspiration, creative outlet, and sweet solace in my life all these years - whether it is music on the guitar...on the piano, dance, singing, or boxing...

"For every Secret There is a Truth..For every Choice There is a Price.." Is the choice worth the price???

Keys in A Minor

Since, I shattered my wrist, I get a break from training. I know I talk a lot about it, its on my mind a lot…dreaming of having that Olympic gold medal around my neck…There’s other things that are more important in my life tho.

I was home alone this afternoon, I was wandering around my house daydreaming. I came to my living room, sat down in front on my piano. I haven’t touch it a long time. The piano is gathering dust…almost an antique. I quickly dusted the piano off a bit, opened the cover up, revealing the black and white keys. I placed my fingers on the keys. My fingers instinctively played a melody familiar…yet appropriate. My fingers were a bit stiff and my wrist hurt as I played when I had to stretch my fingers to hit chords in multiple parts of the song…yet I still played. My fingers were playing...yet I didn’t recognize what melody it was. I kept playing until I reached the chorus of the song….

“My whole life has changed,
Since you came in, I knew back then,
You were the special one
I’m so in love, so deep in love
You made my life complete you are so sweet no one can be…”

I realized it was Ginuwine’s song “Differences”. I followed it up after with Joe’s song “I Want to Know” in a medley. My mind just flashed back, it was the song I played for Jess on our 6 months before she went back to Orange County, California. I remembered the tears that poured out of her eyes as I played and sang the song. I remembered it like yesterday. Tears of happiness…I never knew models cry. I haven’t made someone that happy in a while….I’ve brought a lot of hurt, anger and suffering to others including myself lately. I’m gonna turn that around. Jess…thanks for everything, I hope you are doing well in Cali, God Bless =)

I finished the song…put my hands on my lap, took my foot off the pedal and sighed. I looked outside, mesmerized by the beautiful day….sunshine…birds chirping. It’s a pity that I have a 12 page paper due Thursday. Time to get started on that…

Nemesis

School was stressful today. I hit the gym hoping to get an intense workout for some stress reliever. I was hitting the heavy bag, practicing my combinations and power punches. As I was hitting the bag, I lost focus for a few seconds to think about life and the people that are in it. I felt a snap followed by sharp pain on my wrist. I winced in pain as I pulled off my 21 oz gloves to check out my wrist. It was swollen really bad, it was my left wrist too. My left hand is the one that delivers the most powerful blows in my arsenal…my left hook…its the one that gave me the most knockouts. Feels like I have hit a brick wall once again, I smiled to myself…brick walls are there to weed out the weak, so the strong ones that really have the desire for it will find a way around it. And I’ll find a way around this one. Boxing is really an unforgiving sport…there’s very little margin for error…all it takes is a moment of lost focus or one punch to lose or to get injured…perfection is the key. My coaches and entourage ran towards me to see what had happened. I reassured them I’d be fine. “I’ll be back,” I promised them. “My sights are set for the 2012 Olympics…that won’t change.” Even if the morrow is barren of promises, nothing shall forestall my return…

On the bright side of things, its heating up…summer will be around the corner soon. It means camping, going to the beach…and SURFING (well not in Toronto, but in Cali). When I close my eyes I can already see the water glistening, the sound of waves crashing… I’m dying to go ride the waves…and while riding the waves, reaching and gently touching the walls of the wave as you speed across it….
Its gonna be a great summer!!

Rising Tide

Just finished watching UFC 96: Jackson vs. Jardine…and I must say good fight...better than I thought. I thougt i was just going t be one sided with Quiten "Rampage" Jackson knocking Jardine's head off. Jardine had a lot of heart. That man just doesn’t give up. I guess in Canada no fighter draws more viewers than GSP. I hope there's gonna be a UFC 100 press tour again...then it'll be my second time meeting with him! I was at the Boston Pizza and people were cheering screaming over strikes that missed or were blocked. Then some skinny dude called Jardine a pussy when he lost. I guess those are like the people talking smack about me when I was fighting in Florida. All talk no bite…please keep retarded comments to yourself…

My goal is to claim the top spot for everything I deem is important. I’m close to that quest to be the best in some aspects of my life…but I’m not looking down just yet to see how high I’ve climbed…but I assure myself that the top spot will be worth all the sacrifices and everything in the end…and when I reach that point, I can finally say I see no one above me. But currently, there is one more person ahead of me. He’s like a cloud that hangs over my head. I'm going to keep working on it...but sadly...the window of opportunity is closing...

I finally returned to military service. I did a parachuting refresher today up in Trenton. We were able to squeeze in 4 jumps off the C-130 Hercules. 2 static line jumps and 2 H.A.L.O. (high altitude low opening) jumps…thank God that everyone had a soft landing with no injuries. To my surprise, my army skills haven’t faded.

3 papers due next week….oh my…its gonna be a long week.

“None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free.”
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe